happy thanksgiving :)

suddenly i remember the thanksgiving party in my old office. since no turkey in Indonesia, chicken is ok lah πŸ™‚ So the boss ‘cooked’ 2 or 3 grilled chickens with special ingredients in her big oven and prepared also smash potatoes and others. Then the lunch was ready to serve.

At my time, the staff only a few, not more than 15, so it was a must to say what we were give thanks for…in our work, our family, or our personal life. Hearing all their thanks made me amazed…and now still amazed…of how great our Lord is.

Not only we gave thanks for big things or miraculous ones, even the smallest things or the ordinary ones that made us really grateful for Him…when we still have opportunity to open our eyes in the morning…hey, i’m still alive today πŸ™‚ …, to inhale the fresh air, to move all parts of our body, to smile with our lips, for the sun, for the family, for the work, for all things…

After all the giving thanks and praying for all things He has done and given, we were ready to eat now. The boss’ husband were ready with his knife and big fork to cut the chickens. “Which part do you want?” he asked us one by one…head, neck, breast, wings, etc. He cut the chicken for each of us…and then we started to enjoy the meals and also the togetherness again and again.

So, happy Thanksgiving πŸ™‚
What would you give thanks for today and tomorrow and so-on and so-on? πŸ™‚

Jakarta, 28 November 2013

langit suam-suam kuku

pagi ini, tak terlihat mendung
tak ada juga pijaran mentari
akankah hujan hari ini?
ataukah cerah sepanjang hari?

langit suam-suam kuku
membuatku cemas tak menentu
tak jelas apa yang menanti
saat tiba di penghujung hari

itukah alasan tak disukai
suam-suam kukunya hati
tak panas, tak juga dingin
tak menunjukkan kepastian hati

langit suam-suam kuku
memberikan gambaran pasti
kulit luar terlihat teduh
tak bisa ditebak hasil yang menanti

janganlah suam-suam kuku hatiku
pilihlah satu yang pasti
jangan seperti langit suam-suam kuku
yang terbentang di pagi ini

goresan hati
Jakarta, 28 Nov 2013

Unik Candanya

Di ufuk timur
matahari tersenyum sipu-sipu
menghalau kabut yang menyaput
meniupkan kehangatan pagi

Akankah cerah hari ini
saat hujan suka unjuk diri
di hari-hari yang telah lalu?
entah pagi, siang, malam, subuh
tanpa diundang hujan pun turun

Terang surya sering tertepis
namun tak selalu ia mengalah
kala deras hujan menerpa
surya pun menyorotkan sinarnya
langit penuh kemilau jingga
sungguh unik canda sang Pencipta

Jakarta, 6 Juli 2013
PS. the first of two sentences are written by Amin πŸ™‚
Thanks for the inspiration to write this poem

kelana jiwa

mendung menggantung di pagi ini
awan putih pun lebih suka bersembunyi
akankah hujan lagi hari ini?

kadang mendung, kadang cerah
siapa yang bisa menduga cuaca?
saat pagi menyapa
sang surya gilang gemilang sinarnya
saat siang menjelang
awan hitam bergelayut menutupinya

adakah yang pasti dalam hidup ini?
kadang tawa, kadang murka
kadang canda, kadang duka
kadang berseri, kadang bermuram hati
ada hidup, ada mati

asa melayang, jiwa berkelana
hati pun mengembara
mencari tempat bertambat
sepasti datangnya hari

celoteh mendung, 4 Juli 2013

kehendak-Mu atau kehendakku?

“Aku mau tas sekolah, warna pink,” kata Kiki via telepon.
Saat pulang ke Solo membawakan tas itu, kekecewaan menghiasi wajahnya. “Kenapa, dik?”
“Kok ga ada trolley-nya, budhe? Yang gambarnya Princess?”
Kupandang tas yang kubawa, memang tas sekolah, warna pink dengan gambar kucing hello-kitty. Tas lumayan besar yang muat untuk buku-buku sekolahnya, tetapi itu tak cukup memuaskannya.

Aku pun sering bersikap demikian dalam kehidupan doaku. Setiap doa yang kunaikkan, aku sudah memiliki skenario jawaban yang kuinginkan. Aku kecewa saat doaku tidak terjawab. Bukan karena Allah itu hening atau tidak mau menjawab, tetapi karena jawaban yang diberikan-Nya tak sesuai dengan yang kumau 😦

Sebenarnya doa lebih merupakan cara dimana aku bisa semakin mengenal Allah, semakin tahu kehendak-Nya, dan bagaimana hidupku bisa selaras dengan kehendak-Nya itu.

Namun prakteknya, seolah dengan doaku, aku meminta Allah untuk bertindak sesuai dengan keinginanku. Toh aku tidak berdoa demi kepentinganku sendiri. Aku berdoa agar si A sembuh, agar hubungan si B dan si C dipulihkan, agar diberi guru yang cukup bagus untuk melayani… Jawaban yang kuterima: si A dipanggil-Nya, si B pindah gereja karena tak mau lagi berurusan dengan si C, guru-guru yang ok justru resign dari pelayanan. So, does God really care about me? Sepertinya ini bukan karena Allah tidak mempedulikanku, tetapi karena jawaban-jawaban doa yang kuterima sama sekali tidak seperti yang kuharapkan…itu yang membuatku sering kecewa.

Dalam diskusi yang dilakukan oleh Haddon Robinson, Alice Mathews, dan Philip Yancey yang ditayangkan pagi ini, ada beberapa poin bagus tentang doa yang tidak terjawab.

1. God is not my accomplice to do my work, God is the work itself.
2. Prayer is a matter of trust, whatever the answer is and how silence God is, do I still believe in Him?
3. In my prayer, how can I be in line with His will rather than my own will?

Tayangan ini seperti me-recharge lagi baterai energi yang terhisap setiap kali kekecewaan melanda karena doa yang tidak terjawab…sesuai dengan keinginanku.

Belajar untuk mengatakan, “Jadilah kehendak-Mu, dan bukan kehendakku.”

Rabu, 3 Juli 2013

exploring the Kepayang island

When we just arrive at Kepayang island, exploring the surround is the first thing we do. So we walk along the beach which its white sand…still wearing our shoes and take some pictures when we are on the rock. See the dark parts on the rocks? Those are marks of the water level when the sea tides. The tidal wave will appear in the evening.

Then we go back to the cottage to tidy up our luggages. Before the sun sets, we decide to explore the Kepayang island. But one requirement is that we will walk with bare feet….huhuhuhuhu. I just imagine that it will be hurt since I’m not used to walk outside the house without sandals. I take pictures of my feet when I can stand in one of the rocks, before it is swallowed by the water the next morning because of the tidal wave.

Though complaining, I dont want to stay alone in the cottage…then we start the journey. The sand of the beach is so white and so smooth like flour. Actually it doesnt hurt my feet, except when I walk on shells. When exploring the beach, Selmi is collecting many kinds and colors of shells. She wants to make something with them and also this activity reminds her about her childhood when as a kid, she liked to do the same thing on her hometown’s beach.

Sometimes, we can not walk on the beach because of some big rocks or some big tree trunks. So we pass on the water…though very shallow…but I’m afraid and keep asking, “Is it ok to pass it? Is it not deep?” Hehehehehe…Selmi is very patience to answer my complaining questions.

On the way, we find two huge rocks and there is a secret gap between them. Of course we take the advantage by taking some pictures. We just amaze of with these huge rocks and Selmi has ability to climb it to its top. Just looking at these rocks and see the sea scenery from the gap of these huge rocks, cant stop to wonder of the Creator.

At the end of the beach, finally we see the sign of Kepayang Island πŸ™‚ Selmi keeps telling me that if I do not walk along the beach…hehehehehe. It’s not valid if we do not take picture in those signs. That’s the proof that we already set our feet on this conservation island.


This is the end of the beach…in my opinion. I know that Selmi will follow her adventurous heart, but I already give up. So we back to our cottage via the forest reservation. Can not enjoy the way since very quiet and too many mosquitos πŸ™‚
But at least, we already explore some parts of this island on our first day…

Kepayang Island, 23 May 2013

Belitung Trip––1st Day

Yes…finally today we, Selmi and I, are ready to go to Belitung island. The taxi picks us up at 8 AM and takes us to Soeta airport. We use “taxiku”, so we are free for all the toll payments to airport. At 9 AM, we are in the airport and just an hour waiting before take off. Thanks God no delay for the Sriwijaya flight.

Only takes 50 minutes to fly and now we arrive at H.A.S. Hanandjoeddin airport. So quiet since there is only our plane which is landing and the arrival gate is not to far. Of course after taking several pictures in front of the airport’s name, we are ready to go. Bang Eko and bang Eval are our tour guides and they are waiting at the gate. Now, four of us are ready to go.

The streets are very quiet, no traffic jam, but we can see some huge rocks in each side of the street. Eko explains that the name of Belitung comes from the word “belitong” which means rocks. When arrive at the city of Tanjung Pandan, the center is “titik nol”, monument which has a big satam stone (a big black rock which is believed that satam stone comes from the fractions of meteor. It becomes the unique souvenir from Belitung too).

The first destination is Mie Atep, special noodle from Belitung. People says that it is not valid yet when we dont eat at this place. It is the same as mie Aceh but much sweeter. Several famous people had eaten in this place which we can see from the photos collection on the wall.


After eating the appetizer, we are heading to Kepayang island. But on the way, we stop by at Tanjung Pendam beach. This beach is located in the middle of the city. So many citizens like to hangout in this beach every afternoon. The waves are not big, the scenery is ok, but we dont get off from the car since it is very very hot. The sun shines very brightly.

Along the way to Tanjung Kelayang harbour, the vehicles are very rare which make the streets are so quiet. And we arrive at the harbour at 2.30 PM. Actually when the sun sets or rises, this place will be very beautiful. There is a small bridge to the sea with the lamp poles on each sides. Since it is very hot, we just drink the green coconut on the beach shorelines. Then it is time to cross Tanjung Kelayang and go to Kepayang island, the place where we will stay for 3D2N. We use one of the boat. There are pak Asro (the boat owner), pak Edy, and one guy (dont know his name) who accompany us. So, just two of us as the passengers. We climb up to the boat’s roof so we can see the sea scenery.


When our boat draws closer to Kepayang beach, we can see 2 boats full of people left 😦 several people who just finish swimming…but then they left the island. So what we will do?

Kepayang island…here we comes!! So quiet island. We stay in one of five cottages for two people. There is also one cottage which is made from a tent. The island staff call it “the tent house”. Also the biggest cottage with two ACs. But I think it’s useless to use AC since the electricity is on every 5 PM – 6 AM…when there is no light from the sun πŸ™‚

The boat’s owner tells us that kepayang also a reservation for turtles. They have a penangkaran place for their eggs and several pools for the turtles of two years old. They have plan to make a natural pool by the sea and will release all the turtles from penagkaran to the sea. We have an opportunity to hold the penyu’s. But so many mosquitos in this place because of the water pools.


Our cottage is not to small. The outside wall is made of wood and the inside wall is made of bamboo. Just one queen bed for two and one small toilet which is very dark when there is no light.


But, when we open the front door, the beach scenery is before our eyes…so wonderful. We can hear the sound of the waves, the birds are chirping, the wind is blowing…how great is the our God, the Creator of all beautiful things as far as we can see with our eyes.


Then our late lunch. The staff in Kepayang island, mbak Aas and Novi, are informed that we will arrive in the island at 11 AM. So they already cooked for us. But we arrive around 3.30 PM. We ask to take the lunch to our cottage. And the food are so yummy…kangkung, ikan bakar, cumi goreng tepung, and tempe tepung, and green coconut again.


After eating our late lunch, we go along the beach and take some photos and video. But I’m often complain along the way since i’m not used to walk on the unknown place, some are walking through water, some through the beach white sand by bare feet.


The way home, we go along the mini jungle track…but just two of us to walk through the junggle. Getting hard the ways for my bare feet. And again, the mosquitos….they are bitting my legs and hands….so itchy 😦

Finally, we arrive at our cottage. But the itches got paid when we see a beautiful rainbow on the sky. Before the rainbow, the sky is so dark, not in our island, but above the Belitung. We can see the dark sky which contains the heavy rain from a far far way (it takes 15 minutes by boat to go back to Tanjung Kelayang harbour). After the dark sky disappear, the rainbow shows up beautifully.


Then we go to the restaurant for dinner. The menu are almost the same πŸ™‚ …kangkung, cumi saos tiram, tempe goreng tepung, ikan goreng. The resto is full of mosquitos too 😦 Here I heard stories that there are big biawak (giant lizard who eat insects) in this island and also monkeys.

My fear starts crawling after hearing the story of b otdh animals. Then the place is also very quiet since only two of us who become the guests in this island. The result is that I cant sleep all nite. I finish reading a novel by hearing music until 1.30 AM and I force myself to sleep…and still hear the sound of small animal running under my bed…and I’ve succcesfully insomnia. I can close my eyes and my mind still running until 5.30 when the sun sets…

Btw, I send sms to bang Eko of how I feel in the nite. He says that the island is safe after I am asking the number of one of the staff. But still cant sleep..just hearing the sound of the beach waves and sometime the boat’s generator…until the sun rise early in the morning of the 2nd day…

Kepayang island, 23 May 2013